Thank you!

Thanks so much to everyone who left a comment about my post yesterday about my brother being sick, and especially for the dozen people who emailed me with personal stories of family members with non-hodgkins, who not only beat it, but are leading healthy, active lives.  It filled me with hope!

My SIL is a recovering breast cancer survivor, so unfortunately she knows all too well what my brother is in store for.  We did find out that it is a T-Cell cancer involving the liver, which complicates matters a bit.  We did also learn it is Stage 4 – however the doctor said that almost all patients who get into remission, never get it back.  That’s what we are hanging our hat on – REMISSION!

I have to tell you I never counted one calorie over the weekend.  Part of my brain was like “why bother!”  When I actually started to put my food into – I didn’t do that bad at all – in fact on Easter Sunday, I had fruit for breakfast, and then just ate some appetizers and Easter dinner – and no seconds. Open-mouthed smile

I also never worked out a meal plan for this week, so it could get interesting.  It was my bosses birthday yesterday so I brought in treats.  I made fresh fruit skewers and picked up bagels.  I brought an egg, some leftover Easter ham and a 1/2 slice of swiss cheese and spinach and made a bagel sandwich.

stage 003

At nearly 500 calories, it was a good thing I ate this because not only was it filling, but it stayed with me.  I didn’t end up going on my walk until almost 2 p.m.!  I didn’t even change my clothes, just put on my gym shoes and ended up walking for 50 minutes.  It was gorgeous, albeit a bit windy.


So I didn’t end up eating this plate of food until nearly 3!  Ham, brown rice mixed with baby spinach, cucumber and carrots.  I mixed ranch dressing and Dijon mustard for dipping.

stage 006

I ended up making pork chops with a twice baked potato and sautéed zucchini.  I loved the pork chops but they were still a bit too fat for Tony, although he did eat it. Open-mouthed smile

stage 009

It was after dinner that my SIL called me to let me know about the aggressive treatment plan my brother will be on.  I have to say that I did start to cry, but in my heart I know he’ll be just fine.  My Mom is headed down there tomorrow to help out, which I am thankful that my SIL will have the company and support.  And Tony told me that whenever I felt the need to go visit, just make the decision and go.  Airplane

I did mindless (emotional) eat some snack mix – you know the kind that has the garlic bagel chips and things.  I woke up this morning pissed at my lack of self control, but when I added all my calories in, including the 225 calories of snack mix – I didn’t do too bad.  I just need to refocus.  Eating snack mix is not going to make my brother well any sooner.

Stats for Day 9 of 30 Bad Ass

  • 1472 calories, 51 fat, 165 carbs, 16 fiber, 84 protein
  • 45% calories from carbs
  • 32% from fat
  • 23% protein
  • 50 minute walk

Time to get ready for work – again thanks for all your well wishes – they are VERY MUCH appreciated!  In love


29 thoughts on “Thank you!

  1. You’re right, eating snack mix will NOT help him and he’d just call you an idiot if you stopped taking care of yourself while he’s going through this. If anything, turn all the stress towards exercise. Much better way to deal with it. 🙂

  2. I missed yesterdays post…but my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. So sorry to read about the news with your brother. xxoo

  3. myjourneytofit

    As I found out last year, coconut M&Ms will not make cancer go away…but doctors can do wonderful things, and I have no doubt that Charlie is going to come through all of this just fine. Big, big hugs.

  4. That’s awesome that you still had a great (calorie) day and didn’t eat too much, I totally relate on the emotional eating. Hang in there!

  5. Big hug for you Biz. Snacking doesn’t solve anything, we all know that but from experience I know it’s something you just do when you’re sad. And it’s only one extra snack, it’s not like your eating mindlessly. You picked it up again so no worries about it.

    Take care.

  6. I missed yesterday’s post! Biz, I sure am praying for you and your family. It sounds like you’re getting through this as well as to be expected. Keep taking care of yourself – your brother is going to need you! 🙂

  7. I’m praying for your family, Biz. I’m so sorry that I missed your post yesterday. Big hugs!

  8. REMISSION! Hoping for it! Will keep you all in my heart. MM…that bagel sandwich looks totally delicious. And I want a twice baked potato now. Ranch and mustard sounds like an interesting dip- I will have to give it a go

    • Thoughts and prayers with you, your family and especially your brother. I promise to keep him there every evening until we get the news that it IS remission. 🙂 If love can heal then you know your brother will be just fine.

      Hugs my friend. 😀

  9. So very sorry to hear about your brother’s diagnosis. Many good wishes and prayers for you and the family. Hang in there!

  10. We always think eating will make us feel better but it doesn’t – we usually feel worse . Besides, I think Charlie would want you to eat Cheez-Its 😉

    I know this is stressful but remember your own advice: eating wont’ fix Charlie or solve a thing.

  11. Will be keeping you guys in my thoughts!! Positive thoughts and keeping yourself healthy and well-fueled will be important to help you as well 🙂 **hugs**

  12. I’m majorly catching up on posts after being off from work for a week! I’m so sorry to hear about your brother, but am sending your well wished and healthy vibes your way!!
    Your food looks awesome (as always) as does day 9 of badass!

  13. It must be very hard to stay focused right now but I think you are approaching this very logically. Good for you for recognizing the triggers that make us eat when we shouldn’t or to make better choices in what we do eat.
    I like that even without really trying you didn’t do too badly. Shows that proper eating is a habit that can be learned.

  14. Hi Biz, I’m just testing to see if I can comment as I just saw that a fellow blogger could not comment on a WordPress blog. Hope you are having a good day. 🙂

  15. Roz@weightingfor50

    Continued good wishes and healthy thoughts to your brother, and your whole family as you go through this process with him. Bring on Remission!!!!!!! Hugs.

  16. Sending hugs and prayers your way. I think it’s good to stay focused on your health plans, BUT also not beat yourself up if you’re not perfect…I’m like you, sometimes I just have to indulge in some emotional eating, and while that’s something to work on in general, I don’t think I’m a terrible person if I can’t keep it under control when something seriously stressful and bad is happening. So – my philosophy is, do your best, but also love yourself and be gentle with yourself!

  17. Little slip-ups will happen at least you still did well calorie wise 🙂 I’ll pray for REMISSION!!

  18. Life never stops with it’s trials, and sometimes they overlap! Your brother will certainly be in my prayers. I love the pic of him in the previous post, it is so great, and the one of the 3 of you! That should be blown up and framed, absolutely adorable.

    Have a wonderful day, no matter what the obstacles are you keep going forward Biz, he needs your positive energy! We all do.

  19. I also missed yesterday’s post about your brother, Biz. Hugs and prayers to all of you. I agree with Marie above me – you always radiate the most positive energy ever – I know that will bring much comfort and support to your brother and his family.

  20. I meant to comment the other day after reading your post. I’m so sorry to hear about your brother, and I will be sending positive, healing thoughts his way for remission ❤

  21. I have to agree with Leslie and Marie above. You are such a strong, positive force. We witnessed it when Tony was in the hospital. Do the best you can with diet and exercise, but don’t beat yourself up if you slip up. Big hugs to you and prayers to your brother.

  22. hi biz! i just read the news about your brother and am sending good vibes your way. he’s lucky to have such a supportive sister, and i don’t doubt that your strength runs in the family and that your brother is a fighter too.

  23. You are right about the snack mix and your brother, but it is ok to cut yourself a little slack too 🙂 crossing all fingers and paws here in our house for remission!

  24. Sorry about your family! I hope everything works out for you guys!

    Your eats always look delicious! And thanks for the always kind words on my blog!

  25. andreaswellnessnotes

    I’m so sorry about your brother! He and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  26. Hang in there Biz, we are all here for you!

  27. melissalikestoeat

    You’re right…you need to take care of yourself so you can take care of your brother. 🙂

  28. Well done, it’s all too easy to eat for comfort during times like this but you’re doing really well considering. Better than me, and I don’t have an excuse! Go, Biz!

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