Thanks so much to everyone who left a comment about my post yesterday about my brother being sick, and especially for the dozen people who emailed me with personal stories of family members with non-hodgkins, who not only beat it, but are leading healthy, active lives. It filled me with hope!
My SIL is a recovering breast cancer survivor, so unfortunately she knows all too well what my brother is in store for. We did find out that it is a T-Cell cancer involving the liver, which complicates matters a bit. We did also learn it is Stage 4 – however the doctor said that almost all patients who get into remission, never get it back. That’s what we are hanging our hat on – REMISSION!
I have to tell you I never counted one calorie over the weekend. Part of my brain was like “why bother!” When I actually started to put my food into fatsecret.com – I didn’t do that bad at all – in fact on Easter Sunday, I had fruit for breakfast, and then just ate some appetizers and Easter dinner – and no seconds.
I also never worked out a meal plan for this week, so it could get interesting. It was my bosses birthday yesterday so I brought in treats. I made fresh fruit skewers and picked up bagels. I brought an egg, some leftover Easter ham and a 1/2 slice of swiss cheese and spinach and made a bagel sandwich.
At nearly 500 calories, it was a good thing I ate this because not only was it filling, but it stayed with me. I didn’t end up going on my walk until almost 2 p.m.! I didn’t even change my clothes, just put on my gym shoes and ended up walking for 50 minutes. It was gorgeous, albeit a bit windy.
So I didn’t end up eating this plate of food until nearly 3! Ham, brown rice mixed with baby spinach, cucumber and carrots. I mixed ranch dressing and Dijon mustard for dipping.
I ended up making pork chops with a twice baked potato and sautéed zucchini. I loved the pork chops but they were still a bit too fat for Tony, although he did eat it.
It was after dinner that my SIL called me to let me know about the aggressive treatment plan my brother will be on. I have to say that I did start to cry, but in my heart I know he’ll be just fine. My Mom is headed down there tomorrow to help out, which I am thankful that my SIL will have the company and support. And Tony told me that whenever I felt the need to go visit, just make the decision and go.
I did mindless (emotional) eat some snack mix – you know the kind that has the garlic bagel chips and things. I woke up this morning pissed at my lack of self control, but when I added all my calories in, including the 225 calories of snack mix – I didn’t do too bad. I just need to refocus. Eating snack mix is not going to make my brother well any sooner.
Stats for Day 9 of 30 Bad Ass
- 1472 calories, 51 fat, 165 carbs, 16 fiber, 84 protein
- 45% calories from carbs
- 32% from fat
- 23% protein
- 50 minute walk
Time to get ready for work – again thanks for all your well wishes – they are VERY MUCH appreciated!