You vs. I Can’t

The night before last I realized that my food was already ready for the day, my gym bag was packed, my pictures were downloaded for the blog post yesterday and since I can type 130 words per minute, I knew it wasn’t going to take me 90 minutes to write my post, shower and get out the door.

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So I got my ass out the door and took a walk.  But even though I knew I had the time, when that alarm goes off?  All I want to do is go back to bed.  Like every time.  The sleeping weather is amazing – low 50’s – window open so there’s a breeze and I am bundled under my covers.

But then I realized that for the last several years, my life had been just Me vs. I Can’t.  I can’t get up, its too early.  I can’t work out because its too late.  I can’t not drink wine during the week.  I can’t pass up the bagels that someone brought in.  How easy is it to just roll over, close your eyes and tell yourself you can’t do it.

It was a gorgeous walk – invigorating and just set the tone for the day.  I’ve realized there are things in my life I can’t change at the moment, but that doesn’t mean I have to let it get the best of me.  I CAN keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I CAN get my ass out of bed.  I CAN make my body better.

Next thing I knew, I was already back home from my work – felt like I was gone for a minute!

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Yesterday morning when I was blogging, I looked out my window – and there was Peter rabbit and a friend.  We have so many creatures around our house these days!  They are probably looking for some beef roast by the grill to fall down – ha!

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I put together my breakfast at work – I scrambled egg whites with spinach and brought an English muffin, some cheese and some cantaloupe and plums.  Our toaster oven at work isn’t the fastest, so I topped my muffins with the eggs, sprinkled with cheese and put it under the broiler and went to go check my voicemail.  All of a sudden I was like “My breakfast!” and made a mad dash to the kitchen.

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Whew!  Almost burned it, but not quite.  The eggs protected the bottom muffin so it was crisp, but not too bad – and the top had a cheezy crunch that I actually liked.

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I had planned on swimming at lunch – back in the indoor pool.  When I got in the pool there was just a swim lesson going on and both lanes were free.  But about 10 minutes in, an older couple got in the lane next to me, and then all of a sudden I realize a woman with a noodle had gotten into my lane.  No problem, I don’t mind sharing a lane.

Except the fucking noodle she was holding was kind of big and she didn’t understand that by sharing a lane, she couldn’t swim in the middle.  So we would get close to passing each other, and she just kept her head down in the middle of the lane, and I had to get out of her way otherwise she was taking me down with her.

That wouldn’t have been so bad, but old man in the next lane hugged the line separating the lanes and was kicking backwards into my lane.  It was like an obstacle course swim!  It wasn’t the best 30 minute swim of my life, but oh well!

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Lunch was more leftover lasagna soupLouise just made Batch #7.  What??  You haven’t made it yet?  What are you waiting for!   I had leftover plain wagon wheel pasta leftover, so I tossed that in.  Sorry for these shitty photos – my blood sugar was dropping and somehow my desire to live beat out my desire to take a good picture. Open-mouthed smile  I did like the wagon wheel pasta in the soup though.

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The night before last Tony and I were watching Diners Drive-ins and Dives.  Let me rephrase that.  Tony knows that I love that show so he tolerates it being on the t.v. when I am in the room.  That’s better.

Anywho, it was a show all about meats – double cut pork chops, brisket, corned beef and pastrami.  I watched this guy break down a pig and I thought to myself “I think I could be a butcher!”  It really fascinates me how you can really use a whole animal nose to tail.

But they also showed fried chicken.  I loves me some fried chicken.  Although next time I will take the time to do it right – brine the chicken one night, rinse, then soak in seasoned buttermilk overnight, then toss in seasoned flour the third night and deep fry.

My quick version?  The chicken soaks in milk with hot sauce, salt and pepper for 15 minutes while my fryer gets to temperature.  I just toss it in seasoned flour and then fry until it reaches an internal temperature of 160.  Last night I did bone-in chicken breasts, which I cut in half so that it would cook on the inside before burning the outside.  I am using the calories from KFC for a fried chicken breast, which is 360 calories.  I may have somehow accidentally tossed my chicken in Frank’s hot sauce.  Huh.

Don’t look at the zucchini “fries” on the side – they didn’t turn out so well.  I had 1/3 cup of baked beans and some ranch sauce for the zucchini fries on the side.

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So last night was one of Tony’s favorite nights of the year . . .


So after I cleaned the kitchen at kick off time at 7:30, and took the garbage out, I did 32 minutes of Insanity Cardio Recovery.  I puffy heart that one – it’s all stretching and slow moving muscle building.  I could do that workout every day of my life and never get sick of it.

So I was surprised when I went into the living room a little after 8 and Tony was watching a documentary of the Andy Griffith show.  He loves that show, but I was thinking to myself, isn’t that something you can DVR and just watch later?  I had no idea there was a weather delay, but happily the game started not too long after.

So I went back to my “comfy chair” to watch Extreme Weight Loss on the DVR.  Only one problem – the comfy chair also represents snacky chair and wine drinking chair.  Tony is in the front room, and I am in the back of the house, but I told myself, I CAN watch t.v. without snacks and wine!

I made myself a cup of coffee, put it in my snowman mug, opened the windows to let the cold breeze come in while I was bundled up under a blanket and enjoyed my show.

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  • 30 minute walk before work
  • 30 minute swim at lunch
  • 32 minute Insanity cardio recovery after dinner
  • 1432 calories, 61 fat, 151 carbs, 15 fiber and 86 protein
  • 40% of calories from cabs, 38% from fat and 22% from protein

I have a new batch of pancakes cooking up in my kitchen this morning – sweet potato and banana!  Yep, pretty sure Tony just threw up in his mouth at the thought of it – don’t worry honey, I am taking them to work. Open-mouthed smile

Question of the Day:  What CAN you do today for yourself?

Make it a great day!


37 thoughts on “You vs. I Can’t

  1. You’re right we do say I can’t a lot. Though it is hard in the morning with a cool breeze. That’s just heaven…

  2. All was clear until I got to the snowman mug. I backed up to see if I had “wandered” into another post. No! Love the mug but…..! Wait, I’m still using my Easter mug.

    Yes, this is the best sleeping weather!


    • I don’t even want to tell you how many snowmen mugs I have Bonnie – and I pretty much use them throughout the year. I even have a snowman fruit bowl – it has 12 snowmen on it – and each one is dressed for each month – a scarf in January, baseball for June, etc. Not sure Tony is as big a fan though!

  3. I hate Guy Fieri, but Diners, Drive-In’s and Dives is like crack for me! Once I start watching, I can’t stop!

  4. Disrespectful swimmers! Your morning walk sounds refreshing and peaceful. Still not for me though, I need to work up to that. Still have a hangup of being in wide open public spaces and feeling like I am on display. Your breakfast looked good even with the crunch. Have a great Friday.

  5. Hahaha, the obstacle course swim is hilarious (though I’m sure it wasn’t at the time.) People are so weird. In that situation I’d want to get on a megaphone and say, “Everyone freeze. Take note of where you are and how that might affect the people around you. Adjust accordingly.”

    • Ha – that would be funny! I’d take all the kids in the outdoor pool any day – at least there I had lifeguards who blew the whistle to get the kids out of the lap lane!

  6. Great job on the morning walk yesterday! It’s so easy to tell ourselves that we can’t do something. And going for a walk first thing in the morning can really make a difference in the day.

    Sounds like an “interesting” lunch swim! 🙂

    Have a great Friday, Biz!

  7. Since I’ve been reading your blog for over 2 months (and loving it!) I decided it was time to drop in and say ‘Hi’. The first thing I do when I get to work is open my email & see what you have to say each day and I’m always entertained! lol And today when I read your post You (me) vs. I Can’t, I thought – damn – that’s me!! I’ve totally been slacking in the workout and nutrition department lately & it’s time to get my arse back in gear.
    It’s still kinda hot here in Alabama so I may have to wait a few more weeks but I’m so making the lasagna soup! 😀
    btw…love Guy Fieri, fried chicken and sriracha sauce! Have a great weekend!!

    • Hey Sherry! Thanks for stopping by and finally commenting – nice to “meet” you. Yep, I guess you’ll have to wait a bit in the weather department to make the lasagna soup, but you’ll be addicted as soon as you make it. Hooray for another sriracha lover too! 😀

  8. Man, you are so inspiring lately. I love your willpower and determination – it’s catching!
    Enjoy your weekend, Biz!

  9. OK – I have a plan – I’m going to move close to you and we can do Insanity together in the evenings and drink wine (or not) and I will become your personal servant so that you will cook some of my meals – DEAL? Seriously, every time I read your blog I leave hungry!!!

  10. You’re killin’ it, Biz! I want to be like you!! I can!

    • Yep you can Sheryl. I know you have a lot going on in your life with your daughter and stuff, but you need to take care of yourself before anyone else. You CAN do it! Let me know what workouts you plan to do this weekend. 😀

  11. You will have to start calling yourself Biz Doolittle!!

  12. I found myself having to put a lot of my “can’ts” to the side this week while moving because if there is one thing that saddens me is watching my family do all the work I am supposed to be doing or them not letting me help.
    So, I put the pain and fatigue that goes along with my everyday into an empty packing box, taped it shut and punted that sucker to the curb. I didn’t once say “I can’t bend over to get that.” or “I can’t cook dinner I really have to lay down.” I just DID it. Because I knew I would feel like a loser if I sat back and watched Pooldad and Wallene do it all. [And believe me, you should have seen what Wallene did in the new house everytime we left her alone. The child has a future as a mover AND a personal decorator. Awesomeness] And anytime anyone even suggested I might want to rest I gave them the ‘ol SkippyEye and they stopped.

    I know it doesn’t sound like much to anyone else, but it was a lot to me. It made me so extra ‘specially happy to not have to ask or to watch them cook breakfast/dinner, make lunches or clean the kitchen instead. [And drive my car. I am soooooo happy to be back in Oscar and everything is so close now. Wooohooo!]

    So yes, that is what I can do. For me. And for them. ::smiling::

    And you know that little insomnia problem I have been fighting [since the dawn of time] forever? Yeah, not so much a problem this week. I know what you mean about rolling over and just wanting to go back to sleep. Me and the snooze button are best buddies now. Ask Pooldad. He’s ready to push me out of bed if I keep it up. giggle [I told him I was just paying him back for the umpteen times he has made me suffer through his damn alarm oh’lo these past 18 years. HA! And no ONE pushes Skippy out her bed, y’know? Especially when I finally got it back out of five months of storage. YAY!]

    You have yet to taste the best fried chicken in the world because, babe, you have not been to my house. Yet. I can’t imagine brining and buttermilking tho’. Seems like a lot of work when my chicken already comes out juicy anyway. [Not bragging, mind you – it took me years to get it right. Now I can do it in my sleep. Which, if my family wants it anytime soon? May be a literal possibility. ::wink::]

    Okay, okay. I am leaving. I have talked long enough. I have missed you bunches and thought about you every single time I moved a box of my snowmen. Which, you realize, I am sure, translates into “I thought of you A LOT.” YAY!

    Hugs and love, JG

    • Loved every word of this post and so glad you are HOME! Hannah is the same way – left alone she would clean, organize, rearrange – I really had no idea how much she helped me around the house until she moved out!

      Hope Wallene is adjusting to her new school, I know its going to be tough leaving her friends behind, but I am sure she’ll have new ones before she knows it.

      You need to send me your address – I have some snowmen that would like to live in Virginia – just some small ones though, not sure your hubs could tolerate big ones! Hugs and love!

  13. Love this post, Biz. It’s definitely me vs I can’t a lot! I love your attitude and how amazing you’ve been doing!

  14. Wait, I’m still stuck at the beginning of your post. You can type 130 words a minute?! 🙂 Great post, Biz.

    • Yep, I am a legal secretary and the first 10 years of it all I did all day long were dictation tapes – the first time Tony watched me type he couldn’t believe it – that I could type that fast and be accurate at the same time. 😀

  15. MAK hates fried chicken. Seriously, is there anything this guy likes besides steak and potatoes? Turns out, he likes fried chicken when it is served on top of a waffle. 🙂

    I’m just home from the worst work day in years, and I’m really fighting the urge to binge. Your post about I can’t is PERFECT motivation for me to keep my hands out of the cupboards.

    Have a great weekend, Biz!

  16. Mr. Helen loves DDD – not sure if it’s Guy Fieri or just seeing all the cool food. He was mad about the football game delay too. I’d been out with a friend and came home and he was fussing about lightening and how he just wanted to see ONE QUARTER before bed lol! (Remember we are an hour ahead of you guys.)

    You know, I often drink something hot so I won’t eat: tea, coffee, even low calorie hot chocolate. Not sure why but that just quells my desire to go crazy.

  17. Great job on the walk and the swim today! What a mess those lanes were at the pool! Seriously, people need to learn how to swim…err, share? Hahaha!

    And what I can do for myself today is not be so hard on myself. I had my first in person interview in over 6 years and I thought it went miserable! But I can see now all the things I can learn from it for my next interview…tomorrow morning! There are no perfect interviews, just ones that will hopefully impress the interviewer! 🙂

    Have a great night Biz!

  18. I can’t let a day go by without checking out “mybizzykitchen” I just love your blog, your recipes, Tony’s humor, your readers’ comments.
    Have a great weekend!

  19. You have had such a mind switch these past months! This isn’t temporary, this is the new Biz!

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